What flows within...

How do i describe it when i sleep on the couch?
Erh....
I love how it feels when i returned home after one day of work, lying on the couch
Is either random guitar plucking, listen to songs, play with all my 契仔契女, read articles
or just simply doing nothing
Couch is something that meant a lot to me in a house.
Maybe its because i've spent one year on it.
Every family member in my house moved out and surprisingly DID NOT leave a single mattress for me.
Great, right?
I started sleeping there.
I could STARE (seriously, i STARE) at my mom's photo until i fall asleep.
I could talk to my mom, though i know she'll never be hearing anything i say.
But i just did.
Then i sprained my waist and my back so bad that i cant even stand straight or bend over.
So there i was, STILL sleeping on the couch but in siting position.
How long did that last?
Let me think....
Almost 4 weeks.
One year later, sleeping on the couch has become some odd habit of mine that most of my friends would pick on me for.
Haha..
To me, a house without a couch,
Is NOT complete.
So guys,
QUIT asking me to come into the room and sleep.


Here,
Its different.
Problems unsolved trapped in my head
Haunting past
I stopped taking for a while
So i end up sleepless almost every night.

So i choose to laze on the couch
trying to catch some sleep
but then
FAILED. (its like EPIC FAIL)
For these months,
I would lie on the couch,
and stare into the air.
and wait for the drowsiness to strike
and feels like the whole world starting to fade away
Noisiness, laughter.
Nothing.

And now,
Two of the best brothers that mean a lot to me,
has gone.
to someplace else, SOON.
I'm reluctant to that.
But what to do?
I gotta move on!
West,
We've got lotta goals to score!
At least we can still fight together, right?
I'm honored to know both of you.
Despise what the fuck ever they talked about you.
Just, dont let me down.
Like i dont let you down.

*sighs*

somehow
i've found out that thinking of you would warm my heart.
you're like a mild heat
deep inside the core
slowly giving out
that bring me warmth and a SLIGHT reason for me to smile or even laugh.
: ) like what i'm doing now.
Somehow i thank everything, for knowing you.

Well,
Maybe we both DONT need any crystal relationship
Because deep inside,
We both know
How special we mean to each other.
And i guess THAT, is enough for you.
God, i love your smile..hah
I wonder if you can hear how badly my heart pounds every time you come close, sitting right beside me
I wonder if you feel the same towards me..
Started missing you already!


*hearts*

yikes...guess i'll be alone this Valentine's day... =/