My RipStik AIR is here!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!


I was not in a good mood and just returned from dinner with Margaret.
Then i decided not to go back home so shortly. I dropped by a shop and bought myself some DVDs and headed home. As normal, Apple (as usual) high seeing me. Then i walk home, then found out...'What is this huge box on Dad's chair?'



'My AIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

I went NUTS straight away!

Started to record as i unboxed.

Will drop the vid on youtube ASAP!

I was so psyched about this!!!

OMG!!!!

How'm i gonna sleep tonight?!

XDD

Fairy Tales?

Why does every fairy tale MUST end up 'happily ever after'? Why all the princes always get the fairest maiden in the land? (Even the not-so-fair maiden, there'll be fairy godmother show up and turn her into a 'fairer' maiden.) Why nobody ever thinks that what does 'happily ever after' really means? Of course back at those times, there is no income taxes, no bills, no insurance payment, of course their life CAN actually quite 'happily ever after'.

Kids' mind now are polluted by these communistic stories. Kids should not be reading these kind of 'fairy tales'. Its sooner the better to let them know that there are actually NO happy endings, or anything that lasts forever. There is no such thing as forever. Why do kids' mind have to be fairy taled? What if, when they grow up, and find out that everything they've told was just a mist? Disappointment? Of course. Sometimes is distressing to find that what you've always believe(not only fairy tale stuffs) is just some bullshit and it doesn't make any sense. After all these distressing, what will you do? Can you go on living like nothing ever happened? Or like find something else to believe in, in order to make sure you keep having faith(no matter what that is). C'mon! Get over it! GROW UP! Yes. Grow up.

You see, in some sense, time doesn't heal everything. It only make it worse. Ex: Time kills fairy tales. When you grow up, you learn science. You know that there is no magic at all. You dont wave a stick and turn someone's old thorned clothing into a shiny gown. You dont expect to summon animals to do your house chores by singing in your room, all you'll get by doing so is complaint from your poor neighbors. First of all, to me, fairy tales are stories for kids, and most of them are Walt Disney's cartoons. I'm not saying that watching cartoons is something not good. But kids' mind are just simple and plain enough to believe whatever they saw is true. If they watch 2 hours of cartoon each day, you might having your kids asking you 'Mom, can i get a pumpkin ride for my next birthday? PLEASE~~~~' or 'Dad! Dad! I want that fire breathed dragon! I wan it blue!' or even, Wrap a blanket around his neck, and jump off the stairs. When this happens, what do we blame? WHO do we blame? Walt Disney for making cartoon REAL? Its sarcastic. Isn't it? It's even more sarcastic to know that these fairy tale stories exist just to teach a lesson. Well, what do you learn? Not to LIE? Not to eat apple from a strange old woman? Great. Y'know, sometimes we can forget the simplest thing.

Now, its surprising to find that everyone(well, most of them.) are turning back into kids and children again. People now watched too much dramas. Especially Taiwan dramas. Even though all the story lines and plots are almost the same. (Some girl daydreaming of her prince charming, and there goes the prince charming came by and they soon live a life happily ever after. See? i can make one Taiwan drama too! Woohoo. Great.) But still, they are making a lot of money with these old love stories! Forgive me. My language is terrible than you can imagine. Coz what they want, is a dramanized love. This is a lil' different from fairy tales. But still hoping that what they saw in the drama will come true. Its good to have dreams sometimes.

Faith? Is believing fairy tales some sort of faith? What is faith? 'Faith is not when you walked into the kitchen, you flip the switch and you BELIEVE the light will on. That's not faith.' Faith is not something you see or touch. But you know it deep inside your heart. Are you a Christian? If yes, do you have faith in what you've been told? That God created everything, will you still question these unshakable facts? Well, maybe.

I've been thinking so much that what have our world have become now. What are we living for? Why are we living? When we come to a certain stage that all these odd question came to mind. Where am I going? I'm just confused. When you know what you always dreamt of will never come true, what will you do? I'm so lost. I guess i'm now on my way to somewhere else. Ugh. I cant go on.. Wish me luck guys.

累。

我学会了 不再抱有任何期待。


对你,我要改。

不会再叫你老婆,

只用昵称。


把你当成生活的另一半,

生命的全部,

天真的以为

我真的那么无可取代,

再天真的以为

你对我

也那么想。

过后却发现

你生命的另一部分,

我只占了那么小小的一环。





同样的话,

说了一遍又一遍。

同样的问题,

问了一次又一次。

同样的答案,

听了一轮又一轮。

同样的失望和心酸,

在心房

回荡了一遍又一遍。



我真的不会再对任何人事物

再抱有那些无谓的期待跟希望。

真真的学会了希望越

跌得越





觉得你没有尊重过我这一边的事物。

你真正关心的,在乎的,

只是很单纯的关系

我们的关系。


我还是耿耿于怀

你没有经过我的同意

就公开我们的关系。

你只想到你家人很痛苦,

要结束他们对我们的猜疑。

现在你公开了,

他们有好过一点吗?

有对我们改观吗?

有对我们支持吗?

有尝试过去接受我们吗?!

那我们呢?!

我们又有好过一点吗?!!!!!




现在却要我百般配合他们?!

为的是什么?!

请不要消耗我对他们仅剩的尊敬。

我的耐性和肚量有限。

很有限。

我的生活才开始,

我不想在我的世界里容忍这些

狗屁佛理假仁假义



不要再踩过界

我发疯起来,

我自己也怕。

....

这几天想了很多
尤其是前几天

辛苦

想告诉你

乘这个假期
让大家冷静下

我们分开下
再好好想想


是我们都想要的吗?

可是
每当我想开口

这一切的无情
都被你的
笑、温柔、
及声音 融化了

也许

是最近自己比较累,
睡少了
所以较烦躁吧.....

至少

能肯定的是

内心深处
对你的那份爱
还是那么深



TADA~!

有多少次,选择了你的名字,

写着信息,

想告诉你,我有多想你,多想见你,

到最后

却因为心里的那一份不安,

还是把信息删了。

不安,打扰到你

不安,给你麻烦

不安,扫你的兴

真的拥有你吗?

感觉你

从来不曾

属于我

平时在我身边?

也不完全是啊.

一直以来都有好多好多的计划哦

想跟你一起去实践,

这些

都从两人计划,

变成一人行动。

也许

该放弃这种

天真、无邪跟天马行空的想法

想着有时间,

可以好好相处,

至少好好聊聊?

想着也许会有的那刻,

我可以真正的感觉到

那种

心心相印。

哈哈

还是

我一直以来

要求的都太多?

我承认。

我不是那些什么八点档连续剧的什么角色

我的付出,

我当然有想过相要些回报。

也许

要的真的太多、太过分了

要想的是,

要满足。她已经肯跟你在一起,又为了你和家人吵了一大架,还不够吗?

好。

好。

好。

对不起,我能做的,完完全全的,剩下这句

对不起。

老是惹你不开心,

做什么也不能让你满意。

或者是,

我已经,

失去了

那种让你开心的能力了吧。

我感觉,

已经不能跟你聊心事了。

因为我知道你会为了它,

不开心,烦恼很久。

再不然就是二话不说都怪自己,

然后自己在一边发神经。

我不想你那样。

日子

再难过,

有你一个笑容,

东西又会变得轻松多了。

我们,

毕竟跟其他人不一样。

我们的爱

不是每个人能接受的

不知什么时候

开始怀疑自己,

对你的爱不够深?

可是,如果真是那样,

我相信我不会为了你放弃那

就快要一无所有了。

将失去所有

对我有意义的人、事、物了

包括你吗?

我不懂

最近都好想念妈妈

想念她的声音

想念她的笑容

想念她骂我、念我

想念她在我身边的那种温暖

至少,

有她在我不是一个人的

所以

我决定了

我要学会自立。

是时候长大了

不要再对你依赖

不要再因为你不在身边,

而陷入孤单、想东想西

不要再因为电话荧幕上

没有你的信息而难过

不要再等待你的消息、信息

不要再对你有任何太大的期望

不要再因为你的一些话跟决定

不高兴

我呢,

要学会独立

要学会自己一个人也能好好生活

要学会开开心心的过每一天

要学会看开这一切、并放下它。

要学会更爱你,不约束你

这些呀

我都要学会!

加油咯!^^

H?

怎么不说话?

你看起来

不开心

还是

还在生气,讨厌我?

是回忆,

是愧疚

是难过

是我

是我毁了这一切

我曾经是那么的在乎你

曾经

争得头破血流

曾经

曾经

对你的感觉 ….

那时的我,是喜欢?

是感激吧。

感激你一路在我身边吧

可是真正需要你的时候,

我是一个人的

太厉害了…..

我会怕。

喜欢你,

我说不出。

可是

如果你要求的话,

我不会答应。

因为我有她。

我也许会想念。

让它

留在我心中吧

这个

美丽而短暂

又有缺陷的

梦。

Damned.

These days were freakin' suck. Feels like everything came down to a very bad state.Things that should and shouldn't happen. Whatsoever. Just simply everything. Tired of facing people. Fakers, dumbasses on the road, and these Mr-Right-s, Mr-I-Know-It-All-s, and nevertheless, Mr-Caveman. Tired of putting pieces back together again and again cause y'know they are going to be smashed, (again) and scattered all over the place, again.

So what can i say about you? Hmm...a word start with a B. Guess what. It's barbarian. That's the word that came to my mind. You have been staying inside your lil' cave for such a looooong time. You barely even know what is it like to be in a sivillized era. Why do i call you a barbarian? Firstly, you think you're old and then you think you know everything. Secondly, you dont accept opini......wait. My mistake. You dont even listen or try to understand the others. (P.S.: If this is caused by the cave you lived in, you might have that point out.) Third. You are still using the 'traditional' way of solving problem. -----The Almighty FIST~
Now this point, had just made you a local caveman.

I just dont get it. To me, being OLD doesn't make you know everything. By hook or by crook you gain experiences. But if you're just too stubborn to openup your mind, heart, and soul to learn, you're still, a stubborn old pie, blinded by your 'experiences' and you wouldn't get excited when you come across news. Things changes, k'know that? Sooner or later you will find yourself in a stat that nothing is refreshing anymore as long as you keep yourself shut up nice and tight underneath that hood. Oh c'mon! At least try to listen and understand what's going on! Look around! Things and people come and go! What? So you're telling me that you're gonna wait until someone dies and gone to heaven then only you're gonna start regretting not listening or showing a lil~ understanding to a person who's as good as dead and gone? *scoffs* Barbarians.

And you you you~ you're big, you're a big boy. And also a dick. So you think you're huge? So you can bully and get away with it? You think you're so tough, eh? HELL YEAH! You are!....in the cave. But not when you make a step with your bare little feet on this land of techy-corruption, evergrowing-greed, this land will shit you out with zero warning. Not so tough anymore, uh? Well, i'm quite curious about whats going on in your brain right now. It's such undeveloped. What reaction would you reflect? Sarcastic.


Hey, y'know what, that night, the valentine's day. It's only 8 but the whole town had their lights out. It was so dark. So dark i held out my hand i cant even see my fingers. This was the night i finally had my eye caught on these beautiful starlights you've once told me. They were amazingly fabulous. I was obsessed watching them. Though, there were firecrackers went up the vast wide sky...as if they're trying to catch some glory of the stars too. Glim of the stars, reminded me of you. Remembered what you've told me about the starlights would be wonderful as you lived in the jungle area. Remembered those stories you old me about enormous monkeys stealing stuffs and toiletpapering your house. Remembered how we had fun back at the times. Remembered my evil twin brotha. I missed when we were still friends. No secrets. No boundaries. Sharing. It was just like a part of my life. Good old days, huh.

I wasn't literally allow to tag anyone specifically in this post. But to those who know and understands what on earth i'm babblin here, Yeah that's right. I'm talking about you, assholes. *P.S.: not you avinesh.

无言。

开始自己在发这样的神经,
洗掉你发给我的信息,
才发现
自己已经开始对你有了隐瞒。

记得你告诉过我,
不喜欢对我有隐瞒的感觉。

但是
我的苦
又能想谁诉?

我不是不甘心你对我批评。
而是
太惊讶。
我原来一直以来
对你抱着的
那种天真的想法。
以为你是站在我这边的。
哈哈。

我必须接受。
面对。


永远
都只是一个
孤立的肢体。

我已经开始
放弃
放弃这些
再天真不过的想法。

回到以前的时光吧。
那种
独来独往的自命清高。

除夕夜,
我自己一个人,

cyclone
消耗时间。
爆了多少人的头,
赢了多少盘,

里面
还是空的。

一种
无容身之处的感觉。

什么都不顺利的一天。
太好了。
好极了。

Damned shit

I think i'm crazy.


Absolutely crazy.

No doubt about that.

This stupid fucking nightmare is torturing me.

Stop please?

I needed to talk to someone.

Someone that wouldn't be hurt by words.

These words.

I love you, and that's all i can say. B

but i just cant help thinking about it!!!!!

I just wanted to know everything!!!!!!

everything about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Save me, please...

PLEASE

Before i gone nuts.

Thank you.

童话故事?

最近被工作的问题

搞到自己

是辛苦到.....

现在

我找不到工作

而是工作找上门来

人生的第三份工作(正经的)

竟然是以前很瞧不起的直销

哈哈....

能赚不?

看造化吧~

万事起头难

已经有了一切心理准备了!

生活加油!

Dot Dot Dot


刚回到家

想想刚才的晚餐,

真的不是很丰富

但是吃得满足

不知道为什么。

这几天

给不少人带来了不少麻烦....



刚才开车回家的途中

发现驾车的好像不是我

哈哈哈


从来没有驾得那么轻松自在过了

听着孙燕姿的歌

小爱温和的叮嘱一直在我耳边打转着...

“别开太快啊...”

用50-60的车速(超车除外=p)

过了这50分钟。

哈哈....

突然觉得

自己好幸福

有个

这么在乎自己的人

这样被爱着

=^^=