What flows within...

今年我19。

我遇到了一个人
一个很有想法，很特别的年轻人。
短短的时间里，感觉就已经跟她很谈得来。

She sees stuffs i see.
Its funny how you meet someone like this.
So strange and yet so familiar.
Its like you've known each other for a long time.
I really do appreciate this friendship.
Let's hope its real.

For all these years,
I've never felt so sobered.
I've finally awake now.

Its time for me to FLY.
I will, SOAR in the blue sky of mine.


And now,
i'ma take a leap of faith.
And here i go.

Wish me luck!

真的从来没有那么严重过...这次..连右手和2只脚都麻了。
都过一夜了,,还那么辛苦...
看样子，应该是脑吧...?

人生真是无常...
失去了妈妈，
过着一个人的生活，扛起整个家
遇到一个为我遮风挡雨的女生
再放弃一切，只为和她在一起
经历了风风雨雨，被她嫌弃了
终于收拾了心情，要振作起来
旧病复发，也许不知几时倒下去就也醒不来了。

医生??
真的不想看到这一切，因为我而破灭
我不会怕两脚一伸。
只怕，看到大家因为我，痛苦。

人，可以像3种东西。
萝卜、鸡蛋、还有咖啡。

萝卜：热水滚过会变软
鸡蛋：热水滚过会变硬
咖啡：热水滚过会散发出自己的香味

失去亲人，打击让我站不起来，像萝卜一样。
失去爱人，让我的心硬得对感情不再信任，像鸡蛋一样。

我决定，要像咖啡一样，散发出自己的光芒。

Its been days since we separated. Well, my life goes on really well. Out of expectation. Seriously though. I'm really glad i had friends. Boey, Candy, Sky, Jonasz, and also Chris. I'm really glad i have 'em. Dont understand why'd i stucked with you once. I'm OKAY now.

These days...I'm scared. I just dont know why. Its like i'm undergoing a time travel, and gone right back to 2 years back. I was frightened to see he back of my palm. Especially left hand. The arteries....man..i dont even recognise them anymore!!! Is it really CHF? I'm kinda scared. Why this comes all of a sudden when i wanted to life for my own?! I'm not tied or fated to her! Damn man! I had my dreams to live! Fuck you! ARGHHHHH!!!!!

I'm really down and there's no one to talk to!!!

折磨了2个多月，