Pain
I treated them as my parents...
This is what i got....
It really horrify me to think of what they have spoken to me..
Its all a fraud.
I did too many things unforgivable.
Now everyone hates me.
HATES.
I'd blame myself for everything happened.
I know because it is MY fault....
All the ghost shadows dancing in my head....
Makes me pain.
It reminds me of losing all i ever had.
All those goods i thought is positive which is not.
Pain.
Can we move on?
You told me we can make it through anything together.
But now,
I dont think so.
Seriously.
Because you're not like me.
You wouldn't just put your parents aside.
When it comes to them and me
I'm always the one who's being asked to 'wait' aside.
and then you'll deal with them.
I dont know whether you've thought of that or not,
but i have.
I had always thought of that
That situation,
if we're really being together,
and there are objections from them,
The question is:
Will you still hold my hand like before?
Or just put me aside again and tell me to wait?
I dont know.
I really dont.